Everything you plan will be concretely guided, while everything you don’t will have higher chances of happening. The most important thing you should do goes with opening your heart, clearing up your mind and be ready to embrace the tides of time.
I woke the day after my parent’s birthday. It was a fine morning, with the weather cooperating. The breeze was cold and calm as it caressed my flesh reminding me about Christmas. But then, something came struck my mind; it’s the day before my Yabzy will go back to their hometown. Funny thinking that even the day before she departs I already started missing her; partly because I didn’t have a chance to spend the whole morning with her. She usually spends her mornings inside the corners of her review center while focusing her mind for the IELTS examination. Then my day slowly passed by.
I went to fetch her to eat lunch outside. Traveling for 30 minutes from my residence to her place has always been tiring, not because of the distance but due to the heavy build up of traffic along the way. I wonder why a bumper to bumper situation falls short while going half my way when in fact a flyover was built a year ago to solve it. Going back, I reached her area half an hour before their dismissal so I reverted to surfing the internet while waiting. So, I waited.
As the time expected ended, I received a text message from my Yabzy telling me that their done. I wrapped my work, signed out my accounts and paid my bills. I rushed my way up their center and hurried thinking that I don’t want to wait her long. As I reached the top, I slowly scanned the area and spotted my lovely Yabzy at a corner, waiting. I showed my self, chatted a bit and we’re off to our favorite chicken house to dine.
I ordered her favorite chicken part and mine, paid the bills and ate. We’re too hungry then that not even a word was spoken while we dinned. As we felt full, then we started to talk again. She told me her will to go home today for there are things to be fixed when she arrives. Honestly, I reacted with a smile yet deep inside I felt the same feeling as she went home before, alone and lonely. I missed her so much. I missed her even she’s just telling me about going home tonight.
I left all my emotions aside and focused on the things she needed to do. I encouraged her to make up her mind and put priority on her family’s request. She and I weighed things out and decided to push through with departing tonight. Then, I felt extremely missing her. As we made our steps out from the place where we dinned, I tried to compose myself to think more than what I want. I don’t want to be selfish and just say don’t go. I should accept for it’s the least I can do.
I escorted her to the ticketing office. She bought her ticket and gave it to me for safe keeping. I thought of tearing and throwing it, but then, I didn’t. We went back to her review center and waited.
The night when she will depart came and I wrapped myself up. I helped her fixed her things and escorted her to the sea port. As she moved slowly inside, my eyes gazed upon her and never seized a single second missing her until she disappeared. My Yabzy was really going on her way home. She was really going to make it alone. All the while I was thinking if I could go and be with her, but I can’t. There are things that were far more important than selfishly being on her side, its their quest to seek the place for her sister’s campaign and I don’t want to be the source of mishaps. So, I just let her go.
Sometimes, I feel the need to be with my Yabzy always. It’s as if I won’t be comfortable without her. But then, I realized the value of existence and the principle of love. Even with distance in between, nothing should separate the two of us. And the biggest learning I had to day: be ready for the games of life. What we planned will not always happen as expected. We just need to open our hearts and gather up our thoughts and be ready to embrace it. That was this day all about.
I missed you Yabzy!
